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Missing You by psikotikblade, literature

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Missing You

I long for you deep in my heart Feeling as I did from the very start So many memories of our past I always thought that we would last You were my best friend and my lover And never did I want any other So many years we were together It seems you were in my life forever There are so many things that I miss Like the warmth of your touch or a simple kiss I close my eyes and I can see your face It's a memory that time cannot erase So much to say, not knowing where to begin It's hard knowing that I'll never see you again I sometime think of how I wish things could be And I wonder if you spend time thinking of me I hope you look bac

-Mental-Assualt- by psikotikblade, literature

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-Mental-Assualt-

My sense are in an uproar, My mind is fully ablaze, I can\'t take this mental assualt anymore. Constant through all my days, Images flashing before me unbidden. Sights I can\'t bear to view, Ghosts returning from my past, Horrible, but all true. How long can this torture last? Why can\'t these memories stay hidden? It\'s part guilt, part insanity, Acid dissolving my soul, Everyday losing more humanity, Having to accept that I\'m less than whole, Less of myself good enough to share. How can I survive the present, When I\'m stalked by long ago? Will the future be more pleasant, Or will my decay continue so slow, With this men

-One More Chance- by psikotikblade, literature

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-One More Chance-

I know that you\'re haunted by your past, And it\'s hard to trust that anything will last, But I truly love you with all of my heart. And if you can believe that, then it\'s a start. I know things have been rocky, quite a mess, I promised you the stars, but have delivered far less. I\'d give you the world if I could, But I haven\'t done as well as I should. You\'re a special person, more than you know, My greatest fear is that you will go. I want you around for the rest of my life, Though it\'s not official, you\'re like my wife. Things will work out, we can find a way, We just need to hold on until that day. I just pray you don

Black Orchids by psikotikblade, literature

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Black Orchids

On my hands and knees, A black orchid by my side, I tend to my garden memorial. A celebration of life and a mourning of loss, I plant the orchid with care. Friends, relatives that have passed And loves that have been lost, There is a flower here for each one. I tend to my garden dutifully, Lest any of the memories fade, Each blossom special in it\'s own way. While some don\'t understand And think my garden a burden, My pains are eased by it\'s beauty.

7 Haiku Repost by psikotikblade, literature

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7 Haiku Repost

1) Shedding my old skin Reborn into a new life But it\'s no better 2) Ignoring the world I watch television Becoming mindless 3) The death of a pet Years of companionship gone I miss my ferret 4) Wrestling with demons My brain boils over with pain Please give me my drugs 5) Broken mirrors fall Reflected back in the shards My true self appears 6) Using your mind\'s eye Can you see inside of me? Do I have a soul? 7) I pray to no God Religion is a false hope The world is the proof

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Faith - Tortured Mind by psikotikblade, literature

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Faith - Tortured Mind

Life is a journey, sometimes it is tough It gets to the point you\'ve just had enough So full of anger and pain you just want to yell I don\'t want this life anymore - It\'s gone to hell But you\'ve gotta have faith It\'s so hard to contain the hatred and rage Midnight black demons rattling their cage The bars may bend, but your will is strong You\'ve held them back for ooh so long But it\'s hard to have faith Your worst enemies are the demons you contain Growing more powerful, feeding on your pain You worst fear is someday no matter what you do They\'ll break free and devour the real you But I can\'t find my faith You look dee

I HateYou by psikotikblade, literature

Bullet in the Chamber by psikotikblade, literature

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Bullet in the Chamber

The bullets in the chamber - the guns to my head The question is am I already dead My life\'s already over , so I say I can\'t bear the thought of another day The demons inside, they eat at my core I don\'t know if I can take this any more I try not to think of others, the grief they\'ll feel I\'m just not thinking right, it doesn\'t seem real My brain tells me to end it, it\'s time to go But my heart and soul cry out a thunderous \"NO\" I put my finger on the trigger strengthen my resolve But my heart asks \"What will this solve?\" Conflicting emotions within my head What\'s to be accomplished by me being dead The thing about h

Brick by psikotikblade, literature

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Brick

Hurt by the world and my own self-hate IScrambled to build an impregnable emotional gate I took my anger made it viscous and thick And then fired it into a jet-black brick I laid a foundation of steely resolve To be an enigma no one would want to solve I began to to lay the bricks using sorrow as mortar Trying desperately to bring my chaos to order I worked on the wall as fast as I could Rationalizing it was being built for my own good The pain never stopped, raw material overflowing Firing more bricks, the process ongoing There were warnings and signs to keep others away Desperately trying to keep the world at bay Now it\'s com

Tears on the Page by psikotikblade, literature

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---Black Tears--- by sweetflower, literature

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---Black Tears---

Black Tears Black tears fall Like mascara stains Dark as ebony Her face rains All too real Too frail to touch Her face in ruins What remains, isn\'t much Billions of scars Engraved deep in her skin Imperfect stitches Signs of sin Her desires ignored Confidence stolen Emptiness plagues her Left again, broken Those black tears Leaving their mark The hurt never ends Hanging in the dark I know her well Looking her in the eye The mirror speaks For it is I

--War-- by sweetflower, literature

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--War--

War A bomb dropped A beginning of the end Grab your loved ones Find a friend Fight for the right Or hide from the truth Bring out the man And lose the youth Uncover the bravery Buried deep inside Find your strength From ones left behind Beautiful worlds Showered with blood No motive for this How absurd! Cries of war Filled with terror A call for peace Remains forever Paradise Far from reach Importance of peace Hard to preach Broken truths Fed to troops As worlds are divided In tiny groups More rivers Flowing with blood Mixed with tears And bodies in doubt As lives are wasted Hearts erupt in flames War goe

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July 4, 1968
United States
Deviant for 20 years
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Favorite Music : Metal
Current Residence: Oakland
Favourite style of art: Dark
Operating System: Win 7
MP3 player of choice: Media Monkey
Skin of choice: Depends on Mood
Favourite cartoon character: Peter Griffin
Personal Quote: Screw you guys, I'm going home....

Favourite Visual Artist

H.R. Giger

Favourite Movies

The Crow (THE ORIGINAL!!!), V for Vendetta

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Seether, Black Label Society

Favourite Writers

Steve Perry(NOT the singer from Journey)

Favourite Gaming Platform

Tools of the Trade

Pen, paper, camera, brain-like appendage

Other Interests

Computers, Hi-End Audio

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psikotikblade

Jul 30, 2003

Just Shoot Me

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Just wanted to move last entry off my page, I was feeling sorry for myself...

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psikotikblade

Jul 30, 2003

Life sucks

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Sorry if this rambles, I've taken 3 Klonopin and 2 muscle relaxants.  And please, don't be offended if I say something stupid, this is just a rant for myself. I'm just so god damn depressed lately it ain't funny.  I'm just tired of everything, nothing makes me feel good, I can't remember the last time I really felt happy.  And it's just getting hard to fake it.  I feel like crying almost all the time. I spend time here on DA trying to get through the day, but even that's getting to me.  My poetry is not going well, and the more I read of others stuff, the more I realize I'm not that good.  Even the stuff I think is good, I can't get it view

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psikotikblade

Jul 8, 2003

Another ferret

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My older ferret Buddha died of cancer Monday.  I'm still in shock it happened so quick.  He was only sick for 4 days.  Plus I found him dead 30 minutes before he had a vet appt.  This just sucks so much.  He was the best pet I've ever had. We're taking the other 2 ferrets back to the people we got them from, it just didn't work out.  The little shits were MEAN.  They'd attack you ankles every chance they got, and they bit the hell out of my mother's kitten 3 times. I'm just too hurt about losing two ferrets in less than a month, both to cancer, so I'm going to be ferret-free for a while.

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psikotikblade

Oct 18, 2010

Been a LONG time, thought I'd come back.....

coxi

Dec 26, 2003

it's not about advertising, that's not my style.
but do you like crows ?

pyrokat

Nov 10, 2003

hah... I love the crow too. Awesome avatar.

lost-souls

Aug 25, 2003

They were Donatello Davids, skinny and beautiful, not heavyset like Michelangelo's. Androgynous striplings who outlined each other's bones in lipstick. And they were allowed every art and luxury and perversion the city held because of their overrouged lips and their sluts' eyes and the poetry of their hands.

-- world out of balance - world without end - we are not afraid --

thezombie

Aug 12, 2003

whoa wicked gallery dude

loved ur works and stylez...and i am also a metal freak

disturbedzz are cooool but Rob Zombie kicks asses

amolerouth

Aug 10, 2003

Groovay!
The Crow rocks! Hi5 ^_^ Got caught by your icon, and went, whaaa? Gnarly!

Whee. So good to find other deviants who love that movie as much as I do.

corruptedangel

Aug 3, 2003

Yeah yeah, i know lightning has disappeared!!! and i can't find my copy and eep! i actually almosy liked that one! ah well, :( (Sad)